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Mattel Children’s Hospital UCLA

I have mentioned before how much we adore UCLA’s medical facility.  Both the hospital and the outpatient services.  We have been inpatient at the Mattel Children’s Hospital three times and Kyllian has five specialists we see on the regular for various conditions.

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Our inpatient visits have been a total of 5 nights.  Although spending the night in the hospital is no where near a 4 star hotel, UCLA does it’s best to accommodate.  In room menu for food service if you don’t make it down to the cafeteria offering everything under the sun.  Pull out couch and reclining chair in each room.  Full bathrooms in each room.  Cable TV’s with DVD’s and/or gaming systems in each room.  Nurses check on you as well as the patient asking what they can do for you.    Bring coffee, watch your child while you shower, go on a walk, catch some fresh air, and so on.  Some may think that is standard protocol, but you would be surprised.

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One of my favorite things that immediately stood out was the Chase Child Life Program.  Hospitals can be a confusing and frightening environment.  Chase Child Life Program eases that fear by familiarizing young children, adolescents and their families with the hospital experience.  For nearly four decades, this program has been a pioneer and a national model for how to appropriately address the social, emotional and developmental needs of each child and his/her family in a culturally sensitive manner.

Services Provided by Chase Child Life Program are as follows:

  • Pre-hospitalization visits for children and their families
  • Preparation for medical procedures, support during procedures and post-procedural medical play
  • Therapeutic intervention-including music therapy and play to help children cope with issues related to their illness and medical care
  • Consultation with caregivers, siblings and children of adult patients to enhance their understanding of the impact of illness on the child and family
  • Supervision of playroom, Starlight Room/Teen Lounge and outpatient play areas
  • Expert consultation for caregivers and medical team members regarding child development and related issues
  • Special events that entertain and engage children and families
  • Assistance in transitioning from hospital to home and/or school following an illness
  • Coordination and supervision of the Family Resource Room

Child Life Specialists use age-appropriate techniques to prepare children for upcoming medical procedures, presenting information honestly and with examples that a child can understand. Children may try on a mask and gown or lie on a hospital gurney to learn how it feels. Child Life Specialists may use a medical kit, books, dolls and other models while explaining a procedure, giving children a greater sense of control.

Child Life Specialists also spend time with parents and other family members before and during procedures, and afterward they organize therapeutic play and educational programs to help children to develop positive coping skills during their recovery.

Community volunteers are an important part of Chase Child Life Program, helping to coordinate special events and arts-and-crafts or other projects. And they are available to play a video game, read a story or simply sit at a child’s bedside to provide comfort and companionship.

The program also has play rooms and patios for children and parents to escape their hospital bedrooms and feel normal again.  If a child is unable to sneak away toys and other forms of entertainment are brought to the rooms.  Volunteers check on patients daily in their rooms to offer toys for entertainment and comfort.  We were offered crib toys for Kyllian, for example.

There is also a break room for parents with books, magazines, knitting tools, music, etc.  The Chase Child Life Program provides aid for parents as well.  Volunteers also bring a cart by each room daily to offer healthy snacks to parents who may have been too busy to sneak away for a bite to eat.

Chase Child Life Program does not charge for its services.  The workers are all volunteers and the play items are all donated.  Last Christmas Nic and I decided to forgo gifts and donate items to this program instead.  We plan on doing it again this holiday season.  (Sorry Family!)

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We have been picking up items since the beginning of the year as we see fit.  Our gifts are used year round for children hospitalized for only one night or long term.  I am here today to ask you to do the same.  It does not need to be expensive or fancy.  For example, coloring books, puzzles, crayons, and bubbles are sold at any dollar store!

If you are interested, please click HERE to learn more about the program and view the complete wish list.

Some times on the 2016 wish list are as follows:

  • Infant / Toddlers:  crib toys, sensory toys, boppy pillows
  • Pre-School / Elementary School Age:   legos, crayons, dolls
  • Young Adults, age 13+:  playing cards, dvd’s, video games
  • Books:  for all ages.  parents too.
  • Puzzles:  for all ages
  • Board Games
  • Arts n Crafts
  • Music

If you are in Bakersfield I would be happy to collect your donations.  If you are in LA, I encourage you to drop off your donations to UCLA directly.  If you are in any other city with a children’s hospital, please contact them to see if they have a similar program.

We have been blessed by the fantastic care at UCLA and only wish to pay it forward.  This is a good cause if you are looking to do the same.

THANK YOU ALL!!

 

 

 

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Brave Little Warrior

A little over one year ago Kyllian was diagnosed with Infantile Spasms caused by Pachygyria.  It was a scary time for us.  It has been a year of ups and downs.  Previous posts on her diagnosis can be found HERE and HERE.

Today we give praise that Kyllian is seizure free.  This does not mean that she is healed.  Kyllian will always be in danger of seizure activity.  As she ages her Infantile Spasm diagnoses will more than likely ease into Epilepsy.  Today we celebrate the fact that she has not had any seizures, that we have not had to revisit steroids, and that she is developing.  Infantile Spasms and the medical treatment to stop them are bad news.  Currently we are only on one anti-seizure medication once a day at a low dose.

Over the past year we have been hospitalized twice for possible seizure activity and visited ER’s twice for the same cause and uncontrolled reflux.  We are lucky that Kyllian’s reflux has never entered her premature scarred lungs!

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Kyllian’s reflux was confirmed last fall at UCLA over 4 tests.  An upper GI, a gastric emptying test, and two 24 hour probes.

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The tests confirmed she has bad reflux and that her stomach empties at an abnormally slow pace.  Both are being treated by 3 medications up to 8 times a day!!!!!

We met with a surgeon a few weeks ago to discuss possible surgery to aid both problems.  One is laparoscopic and another has to be done by opening her up.  Scary stuff.  It is upsetting that she has had such a rough go of things however if the surgery will stop the reflux then we need to do it.  It is horrible seeing her throw up exorcism style or staying up all night for days on end because she is so uncomfortable.

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Besides her pediatric gastroenterologist and neurologist, Kyllian is also in the care of a pediatric pulmonologist, ophthalmologist, and ophthalmic plastic surgeon.  Yes, you read that last one correct.  Kyllian visits a plastics doctor twice a year.  Her ophthalmologist is concerned her ptosis will interfere with her vision and she will need an eye lift if her eyelid muscles don’t get stronger.

We have been in the care of a pulmonologist since she was released from the NICU with pneumonia.  Currently Kyllian is off a nebulizer and on Singular granules because she won’t use an inhaler.  We keep the nebulizer and inhaler around for emergencies only.

All of the specialists mentioned above are at UCLA Medical Center.  We have had nothing but the best experiences there.  I sing their praises all the time.  The Mattel Children’s Hospital was recognized for excellence in 9 specialties in the 2015-2016 best children’s hospital rankings.

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On top of visiting UCLA monthly Kyllian is doing physical, occupational, feeding and speech therapies locally.  Twice a week a therapist comes to our house and twice a week we go to a kids therapy center.  It is a lot of work but it is worth it.  I learn tricks to use on Kyllian and Kyllian gets to work with someone besides family.

Kyllian wants everyone to know that she is A-OK.  We have one very special girl on our hands.  The future is unknown but today is a good day and we are thankful.  Thank you again to everyone who has kept her in your prayers over the past year.  Family, Friends, Neighbors, and Strangers.

The outpouring of love means a lot. Please keep her lifted up.

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Extra Fries Instead of Exercise

I can type until my fingers are numb about my struggle to find motivation, my struggle with self esteem, and my struggle with making excuses over and over and over.  I will spare you the details and just fill you in on where I am today.

The picture below represents my weight pre-baby to this past Easter Sunday.

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I didn’t even recognize myself.  Talk about a come to Jesus moment.  I knew that day it was time to trade the extra fries for exercise.  I am proud to say that I have lost a little over 10 pounds between Easter and present day.  It is because I am working for it and working with what I got.

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I can’t afford fancy diet potions, personal trainers, or gym memberships.  And that is okay.  I am fortunate to live near a bike trail, own a jogging stroller, own a bike, have a decent weight set, and a super family to support me.

If the girls are not going to nap at the same time or go to bed early – then I take them outside.  We live a mile away from this theater with stairs to run and steep hills to climb.

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If my parents come over to visit I will sneak in to another room or out in the back yard to get a workout in.  It’s not like they came to see me anyway!  A local tire shop gave us two tires for free.  I created a killer workout around it.  Tires are functional for a full body workout.  Be creative!

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If Nic is off work I use every free second of his to my advantage.  I will go for longer runs than what I do with the jogging stroller or workout at home.  Last week I ran my first 10k in 3 years.  Woot.

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The options are honestly endless outside of a gym so don’t think you need to be in one to get in shape!  My advice is to always be prepared.  I have full workout outfits ready to go at any given second.  I keep my Garmin charged.  I keep the jogging stroller near the front door of the house.  And most importantly I have a journal book of workouts so I don’t have to fart around wondering what to do.  I am getting pretty good at this Mama time management stuff!  **  I will get into more detail about the workout journal and share workouts in future posts. 

Every day I remind myself that it is most definitely a marathon and not a sprint!  It took 2.5 years to put the weight on and I can’t expect it to fall off in a week.  Cliche, but it is true.  I will run faster and I will jump higher.  In time.

After losing 10 pounds I tried on a pair of jeans I figured would fit.  They didn’t.  I felt discouraged.  Within 30 minutes I came across this sign from a Lorna Jane store …

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What a sweet reminder!  I hope this can help someone else too.  Just keep swimming.  Be proud.

 

Twin Update: 21 Months Old

Irelynd and Kyllian,

BAD MOM ALERT.  I bought baby books for each of you (not cheap) and have not taken them out of the boxes they came in.  This is so not your Mom.  The old me would have been all over those books daily.  The new me is a Momzie.  At least I have saved a lot to put in them one day.  No umbilical cords, but other things that are much more pleasant to look at.

Because I found it impossible to keep up on the books I would write letters to you monthly on my blog about your development what was going on in our lives.  Another fail.  That stopped a long time ago.  So here we are.  A few months shy of 2 years old.  Where has time gone!?

To get you up to speed:  Things have gotten easier.  Things have gotten harder.  We still are not sleeping.  We are in awe of our little lady bugs constantly.  I’m excited for the future.  I’m worried about the future.  Welcome to parenthood.

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IRELYND,

Your personality is a perfect blend of your father and myself.  Terrifying.  And I believe the terrible two’s have started.  More terrifying.  You are one smart cookie.  You know everything said and asked of.  I don’t even know how you know so much being that we don’t get out much to mingle with others.  I guess it is true what people say about kids watching their parents every move and learning quickly.

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Irelynd, you are quite easy when not having a terrible two moment.  You love to eat and love to sleep.  We have not found a food yet that you don’t like.  You get that from me.  When it comes to nap time or bed time you run over to the baby gate and wait for me to open it so you can climb up the stairs to bed.  You have never put up a fight for sleep at home.  You love your bed and all your stuffed animals that you sleep with.  Your bedtime routine consists of teeth brushing, giving kisses (even to Max, our dog), and bringing your hands together for prayer before you go down.  I don’t even have to tell you it’s time to pray.  I love that.  I can’t wait to get you in Sunday School some day.

You are a great sister.  You hand me Kyllian’s burp rags, fix her glasses when they fall, and on occasion I can get you to share toys.  You don’t really understand why you can’t do therapy with sister.  It looks like play time so I don’t blame you.  And you don’t understand why sister can have a bottle and you can not.  I get that and I am sorry some things are confusing right now.  I am just thankful you don’t notice that sister isn’t going to bed when you do! 😉

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Following is a list of your current favorites:

  • Books.  We don’t have bedtime stories because you are read to during the day.
  • Charlotte (doll/blanket).  She goes everywhere with you.
  • Being outside.  You love to go to parks.
  • Running because you are so excited to be independent
  • Climbing.  Not looking forward to the day you learn to climb over the baby gate.
  • LION GUARD.  Oh my lanta, you love this cartoon.

I am looking forward to this summer and the next few months before you turn two.  We just got your potty chair in the mail today and plan on training soon.  May the force be with me!  I really think you are ready though.  I am very lucky.

I love you to pieces and bits.  Just please stop growing up so fast!!

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KYLLIAN,

You are doing so well.  I feel like you have the support of the world behind you.  So many people keep you in their prayers daily.  We are blessed.  And everyone you come across is blessed too by your sweet sweet smile.

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I am in awe of how far you have come.  From a pound and a half to 21 and a half as of today.  You are catching up to sister.  Irelynd will be in trouble once we can get you on your feet.  I can’t wait for that day.  You are well on your way with physical therapy, occupational therapy, feeding therapy, and speech therapy 4 times a week.  We are also on a waiting list for one additional OT session weekly.  I do hope it opens up soon however I’m not looking forward to one more appointment to fit into the schedule.

Kyllian, you can get anywhere you need to be by rolling.  FAST.  You can army crawl but it isn’t your preferred method of transportation yet.  However when you do crawl you get proud of yourself and giggle the whole way.  When you do something like that you clap for yourself and look around the room to make sure everyone else is clapping too.  It’s very cute.  You can stand with assistance of an object or person.  And your mobility with hands and arms has improved.  You are strong but need help connecting the dots to get everything to work together.  I am so proud of you and excited to see how the next few months will turn out.

Just like your sister, you are also a smart cookie.  You watch everything closely.  You study others when they talk and you love watching Irelynd.  If Irelynd laughs you will laugh.  If Irelynd gets in trouble, you cry like you are in trouble too.  You are pretty emotional.  You get that from your Mama.  I get it from Nana.  Let’s blame Nana. 😉

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Following is a list of your current favorites:

  • Balls.  You love rolling balls back and forth.
  • Your bottle.  This is exciting because we have had feeding issues in the past.
  • Anything that makes noise.  You love to bang objects together.
  • Being outside.  I like taking you on runs.  You like to feel the wind in your hair.
  • Bath time.  The pool is going to be fun this summer.
  • Moon Moon Moon Song.  Sometimes I sing this 1,682 times a night to get you to sleep.

Speaking of sleep, how about you start doing that now?!  Please.  It is actually Mom and Dad’s weakness because we like it more than you apparently.  Doctor’s don’t have an answer for us because you are growing and currently seizure free.  Some times you are sleepy but will fight it for HOURS.  Other times you are wide awake and happy for HOURS.  And then there are the times when we get you to sleep but you wake up because of reflux.  I will save those details for later along with an update on your health.

Besides your nightly witching hour(s) you are such a happy girl.  Over the past two weeks giving a thumbs up has become your signature move.  You are a hoot.  Thank you for teaching me so much.  I love you to infinity and beyond.

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Girls,

Our goals for the next few months are to learn more sign language.  Both of you are actually doing well.  More, Please, Daddy, and Sleep are our current regulars.  I throw a new one in every now and then but have to be careful not to confuse you two.  For example, blowing kisses and the sign for “thank you” are too similar.

Again, I am so sorry I have skipped a year on your updates.  I do have a million pictures of your every move so at least our memories are documented that way.

Thank you both for blessing me.  Cheers to us!

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Hello. It’s Me.

Hello.  It’s Me.

I was wondering if after all these years you’d like to read

To go over everything

They say that time’s supposed to get easier

But I ain’t done much sleeping

Hello, are you reading?

I’m in California dreaming about how my blog used to be

When I was skinnier and kid free

I’ve forgotten how it felt before two babies were at my feet

Hello from the motherhood

I wanted to log on a thousand times

To tell you about my journey with twin toddlers

But when I try distractions always take me away

Hello from the motherhood

At least I can say that I’ve tried

To tell you I’m sorry for not keeping my blog up

OhhhAaaaaLaaaaa

Okay, it was taking too much time to sing Adele and write my own lyrics.  YES, I’m back to blogging.  For today at least.  I MISSED IT SO VERY BADLY.

I have written so much in my head in the middle of the night while holding babies.  I have decided that it is time to find time to write and share my thoughts.

What will the purpose of the blog be?  I do want to keep the fitness theme going because I need all the help I can get in that department.  But that isn’t all about who I am these days.  I have children to raise and they take priority.  I have one child with a rare condition and that takes more priority.  I have a typical child that I try to keep typical so she doesn’t wonder why the other one may receive more attention or help.  So many new priorities.

Also, I am a woman.  I need to take care of myself.  I need to eat more greens and less purple jelly.  I need to move more and less sitting or laying on the ground with the little’s.

I think my blog theme will be my adventures of being ME.  Struggles and triumphs.  And if I can educate along the way on Pachygyria then woohoo.  Extra win.

Thanks for reading.  I will be back soon with an update on what I do with my days and how the lady bugs are doing.

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Update on Kyllian

For everyone following Kyllian’s journey … Thank You.  Thank you all for your kind words and for your prayers.  I debated posting anything on our situation because I was not ready for any questions and did not want unsolicited advice.  We appreciate the support we have received instead.

The past few weeks since her diagnosis have not been easy.  The steroid Kyllian has been taking is hard on her body.  She gained almost 2 pounds in 2 weeks and swelled up pretty badly.  Steroids are bad stuff.  I know they are used medically for many illnesses but the side effects suck just as much as the illness.  I honestly believe our little sweet Kyllie Bug had roid rage.  She moaned and groaned and cried ALL THE TIME.  She never slept.  NEVER.  I don’t know how she kept going with no sleep but she did.  Just like Mom and Dad.  The medication also gave her reflux.  If anyone has had a child with reflux you know how miserable that can be.  We have been giving Kyllian medicine along with the steroid for her stomach but it just hasn’t been enough.

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Due to the other side effects of the steroid (immune suppression, high blood pressure, high blood sugar, kidney failure, etc) we have been visiting our pediatrician twice a week for check ups.  Her blood pressure isn’t quite where the Neuro doc wants it and we are afraid she may end up on BP medicine if it doesn’t drop.  No good.

This past week we had another overnight stay at UCLA for a follow up EEG.  The test was done to see if Kyllian was having any seizure activity.  Our fingers were crossed the steroids had stopped them as Nic or I had not seen any.

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After a very long night we received word that the EEG was clear.  Praise the Lord.  That same day we started to wean Kyllian off of the steroid.  As of today we have 9 days left on the steroid.  We are already seeing the side effects dwindle down (mainly irritability and lack of sleep).  Kyllian is also more alert than she has been since this whole thing started.  She is once again following objects, recognizes voices and is laughing.  It’s so nice to have our baby back.  Hopefully the swelling will go back to normal as well.

We are not in the clear although her EEG report was good.  Unfortunately the area of Kyllian’s brain that is mostly effected by Pachygyria is where Epilepsy is found.  Kyllian has been put on an anti-seizure medicine.  This medicine isn’t quite as dangerous as the steroid yet it still has some nasty side effects we have to look out for.  In the meantime we are to continue visiting the pediatrician twice a week for monitoring.

Kyllian had some blood tests done while in the hospital for genetic testing.  Doctors are looking for more information on the Pachygyria and for other problems that could be undetected to date.  I feel comfortable with her UCLA medical team and believe they are doing everything they can as quickly as they can to help our little bug.

Unfortunately this is a disease that we have to take day by day.  Can the seizures reappear?  Yes.  What are we looking at long term?  Unknown.  And that is where my frustration lies.  I have asked the Neuro team at UCLA numerous times if they can tell us what we could be looking at for disabilities, life expectancy, future problems, etc.  They cannot give us an answer.  They tell us it could be anything from mild to major.  They tell us only time will tell.  I have never been a patient person.

For now all we can do is enjoy our days with her.  We thank God that her laughter is back.  We pray for healing.  I pray for patience, grace and guidance to be the best Mom possible to such a beautiful baby girl.

Again, thank you for your prayers too.  Thank you for caring to follow our journey.  I am not sure how often I will be able to provide updates but I will do my best.  In the meantime, please remember to pray for those Christmas lights.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Christmas Lights in May

Many of my neighbors still have Christmas lights up.  Pre-baby Tara would have thought they were lazy or trashy.  Post baby Tara makes me wonder what is going on in their life that they are too busy for those “little things”.  Do they work long days and hours?  Do they have kids in multiple activities leaving little chore or down time?  Are they ill or are they caring for someone that is sick?  Oh how I wish it isn’t an illness.

Being a Mom changes one’s perspective of so many things.  Being a Mom of a sick  child changes even more.  Kyllian has endured so much in her short life.  Born at 1.08 pounds.  2 months in the NICU.  2 blood transfusions.  2 hospital visits post NICU with Neumonia and RSV.  Colic.  Constipation.  Trouble with eating.  Lung delays with daily breathing treatments.

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We had a rough fall and winter however things started to turn around in the Spring.  Kyllian (with Mom Dad and Sister) was able to get out and spend more time with family and friends.  The long nights got shorter as she slept better.  Her mood and appetite improved as well.  She smiled so much and would shriek in excitement over the little things.  Although we were behind developmentally (due to preemie size so we thought) we were receiving good report cards from her doctors.

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About a month ago Kyllian started having what we now know are Infantile Spasms.  At first they would happen once every few days for a minute long.  It looked like she was constipated and trying really hard to have a bowel movement.  We found it odd because she was finally on a formula that worked for her and she had no problems in the bathroom department.  We wondered if maybe she felt pressure in her stomach or just had gas.

Her mood started to shift around the same time her “poop movement” started.  We did not connect the two.  Due to her drooling and age we figured it was teething time.  Freezing binkies seemed to calm her down so she must have been teething.  But as the days went by the spasms started to occur more frequently.  Her mood also became worse and she stopped sleeping thru the night.  What was going on?  This has to be more than teething and gas.

Of course I did what I was told not to do.  I got online.  Dr. Google said everything from her stomach growing to the spasms being normal because she was a preemie.  How could this be normal?  How can this explain her colic like behavior for 8 months?!?

Two weeks ago while on vacation the spasms started happening twice a day for longer periods of time.  Her mood was either cranky or in a fog.  My alert smiley baby was gone.  She wouldn’t even respond to her name.  We looked for patterns in the spasms to see if something could be triggering them but there wasn’t anything particular about them.  They occurred upon rising, before or after eating, at bed time, on walks, in the car, in the highchair, etc.

One morning while on vacation Kyllian had a 10 minute long episode.  Nic and I immediately packed up and headed to an ER.  Because she wasn’t in any trauma the ER team told us to follow up with her doc when we returned home from vacation.  Doc said Kyllain seemed to be a happy and healthy baby.  On the way back to our vacation spot Kyllian had another episode in the car.

I was certain there was something wrong and referred back to Dr. Google.  I found videos other parents posted on You Tube of their babies looking like they were having a bowel movement when they weren’t.  It lead me to a problem called Infantile Spasms.   Further research on Infantile Spasms lead me to UCLA Medical Center’s website where they have a special program in pediatric neurology.

I called UCLA’s pediatric neurology department and was asked to send in a video of Kyllian having an episode.  Within minutes I received a call back from the lead doctor of the Infantile Spasm program.  He wanted to admit Kyllian for testing.  A few hours later we were patients at the Mattel Children’s Hospital inside the Ronald Reagan Medical Center at UCLA.

Kyllian was hooked up to an EEG for two days.  We had a camera in our room videoing her every move with audio and video.  The staff at UCLA couldn’t have been better.  They took her condition very seriously and monitored her closely.  We were always visited by doctors, charge nurses, and our personal care team.  They made sure to answer all our questions and always asked how they could help.  Even if it was just providing some coffee.

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After two long days and nights on the EEG it was confirmed that Kyllian was having Infantile Spasms.  We met with doctors and agreed on a treatment plan.  On our last day at the hospital we were asked to not feed Kyllian any formula after 8am or any clear liquids after 12noon so she could have an MRI.  The MRI was scheduled for 2pm.  Of course things never happen on time so Kyllian did not get an MRI until 4pm and get to eat until 8pm.  Poor baby girl had a reaction to the MRI anesthesia IV and could not keep her formula or meds down.  Once she was able to keep it down we were released from UCLA at 10pm.  We arrived home at 1am thanks to middle of the night highway construction.

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The MRI was performed to see if there was a reason why she was having the spasms.  Doc said sometimes there isn’t a clear reason but they wanted to check just in case there was a tumor, bleed, etc.  The MRI confirmed Kyllian was born with a brain abnormality called Pachygyria.  Infantile Spasms are a side effect of Pachygyria.

Side Note:  It is too much info to explain now and it is honestly too heart breaking for me right now.  I will explain what Pachygyria and Infantile Spasms are at a later date.  Feel free to research on your own if you are curious.

Since leaving UCLA last week Kyllian is taking a heavy dose of liquid steroids three times a day for two weeks.  At the end of two weeks another EEG will be performed to see if it has helped the spasms any.  If the liquid steroids do not help we move on to shots.  Unfortunately none of the treatment plans have a 100% success rate and they have some pretty nasty side effects.  We see Kyllian’s pediatrician a few times a week for blood sugar and blood pressure testing.  It is also important to keep her secluded (again) as the steroids cause immunosuppression.  

The goal right now is to get the seizures under control as each episode can and will cause brain damage.  Nic and I are anxious to know what damage has already been done and what we are looking at long term for Kyllian however we can only take it one day at a time.

We ask for your prayers.

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Circling back to the beginning of this post, in many ways my Christmas lights are up in May.  And who cares?  I have a family to care for.  I have a sick child that has stolen my heart and soul.  Friends, I ask that you pause and pray the next time you see a neighbor with their lights up mid-year.  Pray that they are too busy having fun to do their chores.  And while you are at it … count your blessings.